as much as i totally miss the friends ive made in montreal, im definitely loving being back home. man seriously, walking into my house was like a refreshing breeze.  i just put all my stuff down (heavy load off my back), walked slowly upto my room just liek the very first day we got our new house and the beige hit me. everything was almost as neatly in place as i had left it.  my bed was begging me to collapse on her.  but NO. the beautiful chaos was already beginning.  even with all the stuff goin on MAN I LOVE HOME! so what did i discover? well, my sister lost weight so now shes even better looking (and by the way im still fat) so im so proud of her because she was actually dedicated to her exercise.  OH but wait. my computer is busted. i wonder who screwed around with it (glares at kleah).  johana excitedly bought the cell phone i had wanted before i left and could not have.  and i guess some of the problems i left behind were still waiting for me. BUT

 

I DONT CARE!

 

because i love this mess! i love the screaming and the running around because really it isnt the cell phone or the computer or my stubborn glutes that i care about. MAN i missed my sisters and my friends and my mom and my dad. GOD i missed my beige walls. and the smell of my house and the smell of my friends's houses. i miss staying up till 3 planning youth for christ and laughing all night. i miss the crazy schedule and last minute details.

 

there is so much to do in the next two weeks and it makes me so happy. the amazin grace is rockin, SHOUT, our 5-day summer house training is coming up next week (our version of Big Brother), then the fundraiser dance/fashion show on friday. ive gotta catch up on what i missed from the conference and the camp you guys just had. i havent even met our new members yet.  wanna start planning some crazy stuff for them.  im lookin forward to it all. but gotta remember that all of THIS is definitely from our Lord and He is in the center of it all.  i juss wanna say one last thing thats on my mind and it is the most important.  yeah its completely random and totally throws off the flow i could have had but:

 

for yfc south: phener and i DO NOT choose leaders. we DO NOT make leaders. GOD chooses and makes them.  we are not given some gift to pick out who is capable or who is willing.  if YOU think God's pulling at your heart strings, man, you gotta say something. i juss had to get that out because it seems that some people think that just because we're too stupid to notice your wonderfulness, that you got none. WHAT THE?? nooo wayyy! i said it before and ill say it again. WE ARE ALL contributers (spl?) in some superfantabulisticwhollymhollyomgliikeeeimsoOoOofabulous ball. do i have to say it again and again? YOU ARE ALREADY A LEADER and if you want to contribute your awesomeness to what we call the Y to the F to the C then by all means.  mann, you can even spit on my face for not paying attention. cuz seriously, i think i need it.  ok so enough of this preaching if thats what youd like to classify it. man lets just partayyy (whoaaa im like sooo totally gansterrr loooooooool) because summer is definitely not over..

 

but when it is, the SFC are havin their fundraiser walk this september 2005. batteries not included.